Try, Try and TRY again...

Sometimes I’m all talk and no action, but then again aren’t we all? So I totally failed at my last attempt to lose weight! Had nothing to do with the program I LOVE WEIGHT WATCHERS! It had everything to do with me. I just wasn’t fully committed. Am I now? I don’t know but I like to think I am!

The beginning of August I went to the DR with Bronchitis. Of course they weigh you at the DR and I wasn’t expecting to see that I’d miraculously lost weight, in fact I knew I had gained but I was not prepared for the numbers on the scale, let’s just say for the first time ever seeing my weight (on a scale) made me cry. I have never been ashamed of how I looked, and honestly still wasn’t, I was however ashamed that I let myself get to this point. I don’t always look in the mirror and see a “fat girl” most the time I see Stacy, of course there are those times when I get upset or angry because I don’t think I look particularly "cute" that day, but I like to think “skinny” girls have that same problem. So I’ve always prided myself on being confident in my appearance. That doesn’t mean that I don’t understand I am not at a healthy weight and stepping on the scale that day was a major slap in the face that I need to literally get off my ass and start making my body into what I “want” it to look like not just what I “think” it should look like.

As most of you know August was a crazy month in the House of L so I set another goal and I told myself after Labor Day I will get back on track… well Labor Day came and went but on 9/21 (technically it was “after labor day) I was up (and those who know me being up before 11:30 is rare) with the sister and off to WW. I was pleasantly surprised when their scale said I was 10 pounds less than what I was a month and a half before and of course my sister had to point out “all scales are different” but I’m choosing to go with I’d lost 10lbs! I mean a girl needs a little encouragement….

Now Dad has gotten rid of his elliptical and I don’t like walking my neighborhood plus I don’t think walking my “hood” will do much I guess I feel I’d be getting “more in” if I was on a treadmill or elliptical. It may be all in my mind but you do what works for you! So I will be joining a gym or getting the nerve to go to my work gym. I don’t know why I have an aversion to my work gym…maybe it’s working out with the guys in my building and I don’t want them to see me. Who knows maybe I don’t care what strangers think of me if I’m working out in a public gym or maybe I’m just crazy!

lol I guess it’s whatever works for you!

So here I go again…

Smooches!

Baby steps...

Driving to WW on Friday I kept praying “one pound, at least just one pound, please I’ll be happy with just one pound!” And wouldn’t you know I stand on that scale and the lady says “you went down one pound exactly!” NOW HE LISTENS TO ME! But hey I said I’d be happy and I am but I also learned something new in my quest. If you want something don’t deny yourself because in denying myself that Donut or slice of pizza I compensated with eating more of the ‘other stuff’ but probably to the point where it wasn’t helping me but hindering me. So if I’d just had say half the donut I would have curbed my desire for the sweet.

Which is funny as that is something I try follow in the way I live the rest of my life so why shouldn’t that follow suit in my diet err… “new life plan”! If you truly want something why deny yourself that desire, be it a new car, a night out, a job, a man or woman, a day off, that pretty sweater, or those awesome shoes. Who cares what others think, so what if that sweater looks like something out of the Cosby show or the guy/girl isn’t who is the norm for who the ‘world’ thinks you should be with, maybe those shoes pinch your toes, but do they make you smile? Do they make you feel good? Does it curb your craving?

So at this point I am down 4.6 pounds and I still think I am on a good track for my first 15 pounds by March 15. Down is down people, a loss is a loss, that is something not everyone gets if you are down .2, .6, or 3.6 you need to remember you are not UP and that is what matters you are still on track, maybe we need to try a little harder this week but it is a process and there is a goal and every ounce is a step closer to meeting that goal!

I’ll be honest as this is why I’m here to account for how I am doing, I didn’t go join a gym on Friday. I have many excuses but honestly pretty much I just didn’t go, I will I promise but it may have to be put off another pay check or two. To counter act not joining the gym I have set a new goal to do the elliptical every morning before I go to work. I did it today after my cup of coffee, I did half a mile I think it took me longer to recover then it did to go that half mile BUT I did it and I’ll do it again tomorrow. Baby steps…

Hugs and smooches!!!!

TEMPTATION is the devil!!!!!

TEMPTATION is the devil!!!!! Its seems like every time I turn around I'm being tempted by something, Sunday it was Mozzarella Sticks, I resisted but only by the skin of my teeth, I swear if Jessica had been one minute later she would have been missing two of those suckers! Then today at work I walk in and someone has brought Krispy Cream donuts I mean COME ON! That just screams fat, in fact I'm pretty sure I heard them calling my name while I was eating my carrots and hummus, then someone ordered Pizza for dinner UGH! Needless to say my Healthy Choice just didn't hit the spot today! But I survived! And I didn't have a donut or a slice a pizza but I'm pretty sure if they had left either box I would have sucked on the card board…Okay well not really but man temptation is a bitch! All I have to say is I need to see a good number on Friday to help keep me encouraged, I know we all have bad weeks and mine will happen but after all my "smart decisions" I need a little pay off!

Off to bed my loves…Hugs and Smooches!

GO ME

So Step 1 is complete I have joined Weight Watchers and am now down 3.6 pounds in my first official week on the plan! I already feel better, I don't know if that is just because I've had a really good few weeks in life in general or if I feel better because I'm starting to take care of myself.

I realized last Sunday I haven't had a soda of any kind in over two weeks, in the last few years I'd given up Coca Cola or Pepsi for the most part so it wasn't strange to go so long without a dark soda but I still would drink Sprite or Ginger Ale, and lately I'd gotten on a Green Tea kick. I have a friend that I have made a bet with about what you can give up for 40 days... She said "drinking" I said "Deal" meaning SHE is giving it up not me, come on people I am good but I'm not that good.... Anyway she met me out on "Sunday Funday" and as she ordered her water I was thinking to myself "Water all night has to get old" and then she broke out her Crystal Lite packet and I thought "this is why we are friends" lol anyway that’s when I realized I hadn't had a soda of any kind in well over a week. I wake up grab coffee on my way to work, get to work fill up my Jumbo cup of water (my boss says it's probably 2 cups), and at some point I drink a Sobe or Vitamin Water but that's it! So GO ME!!!! One habit down only 3248 to go...

So now I have my first goal, my company has a Gala every year and this year I am going! Now I don’t expect to be down 50 pounds or anything crazy like that by March 16^th but I think I can pull off going down 15. I’m taking this slow and steady make little challenges to myself and small rewards… The Gala being my first reward! Now if only I could find a date….

Alright kids well this one is short and sweet! Till next time…. Hugs and Smooches!

 

 

NEW YEAR NEW BOOK...

NEW YEAR NEW BOOK...

 

Alright so the last time you heard from me was 2011, well guess what I failed but I'm ready to try again.

 
The concept is the same... We all know I'm still need to lose a good 100 pounds, it will probably be a few years before I meet that goal because let’s face it I'm not Jennifer Hudson or Jessica Simpson and I can't pay people to cook for me or be my personal trainer. BUT I can work my ass off and for once succeed at something and not blame others for it not working, and well I take full credit for looking the way I look WHICH is also why I will be the one to fix it!
 

Many things have changed since you heard from me last, I'm single ( but that's another blog and another story), I'm back home living with my folks and I'm working in a different field of work. But I'm still FAT and that is just getting old!
 

I've watched my sister over the last year or so drop the pounds and she looks amazing and well I've always wanted to be just like my big sister so once again I'm trailing behind her, kinda like when I use to cry for her to take me with her when she'd go out with her friends, minus the tears and the temper tantrum (well most days) and let’s face it she really can't do this for me! But she can be my motivation!
 

So Saturday at work I went and weighed myself so with hands over my eyes and one eyed closed I looked at the scale and well I’ll just say I regretted it but it had to be done, so all week I've been watching what I eat and mostly been following Weight Watchers plans as a jump start till I go to my first weigh in on Friday morning before work.

 
I've cut back on my nights out, Sundays are still my weakness! Plus well come on it is Football season and well the SKINS had it going on! So I'll still have my cheat day on Sunday but if you don't see me as much out, it’s me trying to be the big girl (no pun intended) and do the right thing for me.



So my first set of goals:

1. Join WEIGHT WATCHERS on Friday 1/11/13 (pay day)

2. Join 24 hour fitness on Friday 1/25/13 (pay day - see a trend here)

The next set of goals will be listed as once a join and am able to figure out my strategy.



So here it is... It's time for a change and it’s time for me to put my big girl pants on till I need a belt, then have to get them taken it because they are too big! If you wish to follow along feel free, this blog as before is here for me to vent and ramble and to motivate myself if I motivate others or just keep you entertained then that's an added bonus!

 

Speak atcha later!

Stac