Sometimes I’m all talk and no action, but then again aren’t we all?
So I totally failed at my last attempt to lose weight! Had nothing to do with
the program I LOVE WEIGHT WATCHERS! It had everything to do with me. I just
wasn’t fully committed. Am I now? I don’t know but I like to think I am!
The beginning of August I went to the DR with Bronchitis. Of course
they weigh you at the DR and I wasn’t expecting to see that I’d miraculously
lost weight, in fact I knew I had gained but I was not prepared for the numbers on
the scale, let’s just say for the first time ever seeing my weight (on a scale) made me cry.
I have never been ashamed of how I looked, and honestly still wasn’t, I was
however ashamed that I let myself get to this point. I don’t always look in the
mirror and see a “fat girl” most the time I see Stacy, of course there are
those times when I get upset or angry because I don’t think I look particularly
"cute" that day, but I like to think “skinny” girls have that same problem. So I’ve
always prided myself on being confident in my appearance. That doesn’t mean
that I don’t understand I am not at a healthy weight and stepping on the scale
that day was a major slap in the face that I need to literally get off my ass
and start making my body into what I “want” it to look like not just what I “think”
it should look like.
As most of you know August was a crazy month in the House of L so I
set another goal and I told myself after Labor Day I will get back on track…
well Labor Day came and went but on 9/21 (technically it was “after labor day)
I was up (and those who know me being up before 11:30 is rare) with the sister
and off to WW. I was pleasantly surprised when their scale said I was 10 pounds
less than what I was a month and a half before and of course my sister had to
point out “all scales are different” but I’m choosing to go with I’d lost
10lbs! I mean a girl needs a little encouragement….
Now Dad has gotten rid of his elliptical and I don’t like walking
my neighborhood plus I don’t think walking my “hood” will do much I guess I
feel I’d be getting “more in” if I was on a treadmill or elliptical. It may be
all in my mind but you do what works for you! So I will be joining a gym or
getting the nerve to go to my work gym. I don’t know why I have an aversion to
my work gym…maybe it’s working out with the guys in my building and I don’t
want them to see me. Who knows maybe I don’t care what strangers think of me if
I’m working out in a public gym or maybe I’m just crazy!
lol I guess it’s whatever works for you!
So here I go again…
Smooches!
